Excerpt
The morning I went to hell I was passed out drunk.
One moment I was lost in the sodden oblivion last night's twelve-packs had bought. The next a whole passel of cops was rat-packing me in my bed, wrestling me over and shackling my wrists behind me before I could fight back.
The feel of cold steel snapping shut around my wrists made me relax, despite them ratcheting tight enough to cut off the blood flow and hurt. I'd worn such bracelets more than a few times as a kid and the familiarity cut right through my alcoholic haze, made me stop any resistance.
I was wrenched to my feet and propelled out of the master bedroom, all of the cops shouting: at me, at one another, at the world. As I was staggered toward what was left of the front door, my son Sam stood by the TV holding one of his action figures.
Sam's eyes were bright blue and wide, looking as fake as those painted on the toy dangling from his hand. His thumb was rammed up to the root in his mouth even though he was ten and no longer a baby at all. The TV was tuned to one of his cartoons, the volume turned high so the show's atonal music and manic sound effects blared loud and cutesy-bouncy.
Our eyes met as the cops bum-rushed me along. My eyes were bleary; I was dull-witted as a steer headed for the slaughter chute. Sam's eyes were blank dull stones.
As they stumbled me out the front door my wife Angela stood in the kitchen with her knuckle in her mouth, biting down on it hard enough to draw blood. Her thick black hair wasn't brushed and combed into the long shining raven's wing I so loved to run my hands through. Tangled and bedraggled, it spilled over her face.
Angela was short and petite. Now she looked shrunken as an abandoned doll, surrounded by the appliances and furniture we'd bought to shield us from our former lives before Stagger Bay. Her eyes burned at me past her bedraggled locks as I somehow tripped off the porch and onto my face.