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Toussaint placed her — like a doll in his big, rough hands — onto the rose damask fainting couch. Chaaya dug her face into the couch, rubbing the upholstery across her cheek. It felt like a beard.
"There's electricity," Toussaint said. "And water. That's good."
She felt something warm on her face; he was holding a mug of something to her. "It's coffee," he explained. "With sugar."
With sugar. Like sweets. Sweets. She loved sweets.
"It's actually more sugar than coffee," he explained, as if an apology was necessary. Toussaint held the coffee cup up for her, and politely looked away as he nudged up her mask. He'd seen her lips before. She'd seen his. It was strange that he was being polite. She thought she must look terrible. The coffee was lukewarm, weakly smoky, powdery and wet. But it was sweet. He fed her sips and she lapped at it like a kitten.
Revival came in a rush. The sugar hit her bloodstream and she was in the moment. Aware, like a great camera shifting into focus, fast forward. Her thoughts were clear and solid and entire, one after another. She tried to speak, but everything wanted to come out of her all at once: Girl, body, girl, killed, you, shot, girl. Instead, nothing came out. Her voice had been strange; now it was gone.
Toussaint held out a plate to her. They were Nani's ornately painted holiday plates. They used them only for special occasions and company. Heaped on the plate were chunks of cut-up fruit, striped dark green and lime and orange.
"Tomatoes. They're OK," he said. He balanced the plate on her lap. "I ate two earlier and I'm OK."
She didn't care. She shoved the slices in her mouth, into her cheeks, as quickly as she could. Her mask was wet again, with tomato seeds. She didn't care. She tasted salt. Pepper, maybe. Fruit glucose. She tried to make herself slow down and chew. Her blood hummed like the electricity in the walls. Her leg bobbed up and down.
"Jesus," he said. "That's better. You've got some color again." He sat back down on the floor and held a packet out to her. "You need a seeding, badly. Don't you?" He wasn't really waiting for an answer. "I'll prep some for you. Where's Nani?"