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I lowered the phone and stared at it in disbelief. It had to be some kind of mistake. A prank. It didn't make any sense. Mary had killed herself because of me? She'd been so happy the last several times we'd met, focused on a new career with a fresh outlook on relationships. Had her excitement been fake? A show? Had I missed it somehow?
Carme came to sit where Heidi had been. I told her everything from the side of the conversation she hadn't heard. The ringing in my ears flared, like I was sitting inside an airplane engine. The lavender smell sharpened, assaulting my nose and my stomach.
Carme played with her necklace pendant. "Should I cancel your clients for this afternoon?"
"No," I said too quickly, and she raised her eyebrows at me. "No," I repeated slower. "I'm okay. Really. I'm fine." Did I believe it? Was I fine?
Carme studied me like she didn't believe me either. "What about Heidi?"
I let out a long exhale. "I'll call her. Do damage control. See if she'll come in again."
How much had Heidi overheard? The accusation I'd killed Mary? Was I to blame for her death? Maybe Carme was right and I should cancel my clients for the afternoon. Maybe forever. A client I had coached for a better life had ended it. I needed space to think, needed to breathe. I also needed coffee and not just for the caffeine. It helped make the ringing in my ears go away.
"Okay, cancel those appointments," I told Carme, admitting to her and myself I needed time off.
Hands shaky, I sent Liam a text to see if he was around. He lived and worked not far, and, as my best friend, was always good about meeting me when I needed it. I could use some of his positive vibes right now.
Carme finished her calls. "All set," she said. "I rescheduled them."
"Thank you." My phone buzzed. Liam would meet us downstairs for his morning break.
A weighty smell of lavender surrounded me. The memory of a different smell, the one that preceded my stepfather's terrifying visits, made me grip the arms of my chair.
My heart thumped, my breathing shallowed and my body became paralyzed. This was not the same, I told myself. It couldn't be.
But it could be. Someone blamed me for their death; what better reason to come after me? My ears rang so badly, my whole head hurt. The scent of lavender clouded me, so thick I could almost taste it.
I got to my feet. "Carme, we have to leave. Right now."
There was no denying it. There was a ghost in the office and I was pretty sure it wasn't happy.